Posted in Everyday Life, Small Contemplations, The Gym, tagged Autumn, Chocolate, Joss Whedon, Language, Movies, Quim, Yoga on September 15, 2012|
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I had a bad day yesterday. I just don’t know what got into me, but I got nothing done. Not the cleaning I’ve been postponing, nor the studying that gets me worried. I felt heavy and tired and stressed out. And all day long there was this unrelenting greyness outside my window, the rain incessantly pouring and all motivation and energy in me just draining away.
I made some hot chocolate and watched The Avengers, still nothing. Momentary distractions. I listened to music I like, made plans for next week, but I just couldn’t get myself to care. After a long shower where I for some reason felt so sad I almost started crying I completely gave up on the idea of accomplishing what I had set out to do.
Very sweet boyfriend came over and watched Firefly and ate chocolate dessert with me, and then spent the night.
Woke up feeling tired but much better today. Managed to get myself to yoga, and the 90 minute class before breakfast really kicked my ass. I’ve barely worked out this summer despite what I had hoped, but I really wanna get back to the pace I was setting in May/June. Especially the swimming, which I will find all the more unattractive the colder it gets, and significantly so if I lack routines. (I’m always talking about routines it seems, though it’s obvious to anyone with a brain that I have none of those.)
I have, since I got back from yoga, watched a movie (Bridesmaids), divided all of tomorrows laundry (decided to do the pillows and blankets and such as well), thoroughly vacuumed the couch which I felt needed a good cleaning and started studying a bit. Not the effectiveness I had hoped for (yet) but I might get there. Somehow, this weekend just feels very exhausting. I feel scatterbrained and sad, and just wish I could sleep it all of without caring about it but I can’t. I need to get things done, and there never seems to be enough time.
I’m not feeling up to par right now. So very tired already and it’s only September and semester just began. Autumn is seeping into my bones.
(Unrelated to most above, I think I have only heard the word “quim” be used twice in my life. For those who do not know it, it’s a version of the word cunt, mainly used by Brits. It’s said both in The Avengers, as in one episode of Firefly. So I come to the conclusion that it’s a Joss Whedon kind of curse word. I find it a very interesting one, as it is used so seldom, and by a man who’s scripts usually hold little profanity, to the point where he sometimes makes up new curses, such as “gorram”. Then again I like words, particularly new words (to me).
(What’s up with all the brackets today?)
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